02/07/2011
The past few days have been up and down. On the 5th, half of my heart left me for a year! I've been trying to keep it together so Zack doesn't see me get upset but not sure how much longer that will work. For anyone who has loved someone with everything that they are, it is the hardest thing ever to watch them walk away from you! Zack and I did very good, standing there watching Eric grab his bags and get on that bus. I was especially proud of how Zack took it. We spent the afternoon at home, just the 2 of us doing absolutely nothing. Sunday, we did get out of the house for a few hours and went to a friend's house and enjoyed the afternoon with them. Had a good time watching the football game and enjoying some food!
Today it was back to business. Got up and got Zack off to school. Worked on the house for a bit and then tonight again the loneliness starts to creep in. I seriously need to stop listening to my play list when I am sitting on my computer... I seem to like Love songs... And at a time like this, they are all depressing! Maybe I will make a new play list for computer time...
Also this weekend my family lost someone. My uncle Bill passed away during the night Saturday night. I feel so bad that I am so far away and can't be there with my family. One of my best friends growing up was my cousin, Shelley. I haven't seen her in years... Now only through Facebook. She drove back to Idaho when her dad started having strokes last week and got there in time to say good bye to him. I so wish I could be there with her... and for my dad, who lost his brother. At these times is when I hate being so far away. It scares me to think that if something were to happen to my parents or brothers/sister that I would not be able to get back home. These are some of the issues we deal with on a daily basis... serving our country!
Today I also started on the path to a life change! Not sure if I mentioned before but Eric bought me a recumbent bike and treadmill before he left. My plan is to loose much needed weight and start taking care of myself. Well, today was my first day monitoring my caloric intake... I started seeing a nutritionist and she gave me a 1800 calorie a day limit... Not sure if I did something wrong but I wrote down everything I ate today and mine only came to 1250. Does that mean I'm supposed to eat more? Tomorrow I have plans to go to the shoe store and get myself some athletic shoes... The ones I have just don't work on the treadmill or the bike. I also have to make up a chart to keep track of my mileage on the treadmill and bike. I want to walk the distance to Eric over the next year... Thats over 4000 miles! Wish me luck on that one... Right now I'd be happy if I could walk more than a mile at a time!!!
Off to bed now! I hope everyone has a great week!!
Side note... Eric if you are reading this.... I love you and miss you and please come home to me soon!!!
02/09/2011
Today was such a great day!!! Got up and turned on the computer and Eric was on Skype waiting for Zack and I... It made the whole day just go by so great... I was on such an emotional high all day I decided to make the most of it.
After dropping Zack off at school, I decided to head into town and check out the 'Mall' we have here... Not much of a mall... more like a hall with about 20 (if that) stores in it... No food court to speak of really... There was a little place and I noticed they sold smoothies... may have to go back during the summer! But I did find a Payless shoe store in there and was able to buy myself some nice walking shoes... toning and firming too! Always a plus to tone and firm!! haha Ended up walking the mall and found a Game stop so I went in and bought Zack a couple PS3 games... Then headed over to the Salon at Walmart... I know, but I like them and they do good work on my hair... I learned a long time ago, its not how much you pay, but who you are paying! I decided that I was tired of my mousy looking hair so I went in to get some highlights. The girl that did my hair did a great job, but I think when I go back I'm gonna have them go even lighter. I wanted subtle but noticeable... It is noticeable but not that noticeable. I need to find that happy medium...
After leaving Walmart, I finally made it home in time to go get Zack from school. It was just an all around great day and I feel like I got so much accomplished outside of the house... Hopefully Eric will be on the computer in the morning again and tomorrow I will get accomplished here at the house... Really need to do the dishes and fold the laundry... haha!!!
Hope you have a great night and an even better day tomorrow!!
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