Tuesday, February 15, 2011

02/12/11 - 02/18/2011

02/15/2011

Day after Valentine's Day... I sure hope your day was better than mine.... Last week Eric made a comment about not screwing up when Valentine's day is... Fast Forward... Valentine's Day comes and I sit at the house all day just incase my dear husband sends me something from overseas... I watch on Facebook as my friends keep posting pictures of the beautiful bouquets of flowers they are getting... Awww so sweet!!!  One comment on one post says 'Now that is real love, when your husband takes time out of his day in Iraq to send his beautiful wife beautiful flowers!'  Wow... that is so cool... I am so excited to see what my wonderful husband is sending me....

Back to today.... Nothing!  I went to bed so upset last night, hurt that my husband didn't send me something... So mad I was having bad dreams about us fighting over his lack of caring...So I get up this morning after having one of the worst nights of sleep since he left... Turn on the computer, turn on Skype, and wait for him to log on....

Finally he gets on and in a very calm voice after the hellos and I love yous... I say to him... 'Just wondering if you sent me something for Valentine's Day, because nothing showed up...', Just hoping maybe it just didn't get delivered.... His answer... No, Just didn't think about it.  Wow... It took everything I had not to burst into tears at that moment... I get it, he's overseas... I shouldn't be so petty and be upset because my husband of almost 17 years didn't sent me a Valentine... But you know what... I am sad... I am petty... and I am pissed that he had no trouble spending $120 on a hard drive for his computer but couldn't buy me a Valentine.  Does that make me a bad wife?  I don't think so!  I think any woman would be hurt no matter where their husband is... And I'm not gonna feel sorry for him for 'not thinking about it'... It hurt so bad... It felt like he was saying to me... No, Just didn't think about YOU! 

Now if something shows up it just won't mean the same... It will be an I'm sorry gift instead of an I love you one... Like I've said before... Whatcha gonna do?  I've tried for 17 years to get this man to take a hint and remember days like Valentine's day is something special to a girl... Maybe its my fault for expecting him to change and just get it... finally!

I hope everyone else's Valentines Day was a lot happier then mine!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

2/05/11 - 2/11/2011

02/07/2011

The past few days have been up and down.  On the 5th, half of my heart left me for a year!  I've been trying to keep it together so Zack doesn't see me get upset but not sure how much longer that will work.  For anyone who has loved someone with everything that they are, it is the hardest thing ever to watch them walk away from you!  Zack and I did very good, standing there watching Eric grab his bags and get on that bus.  I was especially proud of how Zack took it.  We spent the afternoon at home, just the 2 of us doing absolutely nothing.  Sunday, we did get out of the house for a few hours and went to a friend's house and enjoyed the afternoon with them.  Had a good time watching the football game and enjoying some food!

Today it was back to business.  Got up and got Zack off to school.  Worked on the house for a bit and then tonight again the loneliness starts to creep in.  I seriously need to stop listening to my play list when I am sitting on my computer... I seem to like Love songs... And at a time like this, they are all depressing!   Maybe I will make a new play list for computer time...

Also this weekend my family lost someone.  My uncle Bill passed away during the night Saturday night.  I feel so bad that I am so far away and can't be there with my family.  One of my best friends growing up was my cousin, Shelley.  I haven't seen her in years... Now only through Facebook.  She drove back to Idaho when her dad started having strokes last week and got there in time to say good bye to him.  I so wish I could be there with her... and for my dad, who lost his brother.  At these times is when I hate being so far away.  It scares me to think that if something were to happen to my parents or brothers/sister that I would not be able to get back home.  These are some of the issues we deal with on a daily basis... serving our country!

Today I also started on the path to a life change!  Not sure if I mentioned before but Eric bought me a recumbent bike and treadmill before he left.  My plan is to loose much needed weight and start taking care of myself.  Well, today was my first day monitoring my caloric intake... I started seeing a nutritionist and she gave me a 1800 calorie a day limit... Not sure if I did something wrong but I wrote down everything I ate today and mine only came to 1250.  Does that mean I'm supposed to eat more?  Tomorrow I have plans to go to the shoe store and get myself some athletic shoes... The ones I have just don't work on the treadmill or the bike.  I also have to make up a chart to keep track of my mileage on the treadmill and bike.  I want to walk the distance to Eric over the next year... Thats over 4000 miles!  Wish me luck on that one... Right now I'd be happy if I could walk more than a mile at a time!!!

Off to bed now!  I hope everyone has a great week!!

Side note... Eric if you are reading this.... I love you and miss you and please come home to me soon!!!


02/09/2011

Today was such a great day!!!  Got up and turned on the computer and Eric was on Skype waiting for Zack and I... It made the whole day just go by so great... I was on such an emotional high all day I decided to make the most of it.

After dropping Zack off at school, I decided to head into town and check out the 'Mall' we have here... Not much of a mall... more like a hall with about 20 (if that) stores in it... No food court to speak of really... There was a little place and I noticed they sold smoothies... may have to go back during the summer!  But I did find a Payless shoe store in there and was able to buy myself some nice walking shoes... toning and firming too!  Always a plus to tone and firm!!  haha  Ended up walking the mall and found a Game stop so I went in and bought Zack a couple PS3 games... Then headed over to the Salon at Walmart... I know, but I like them and they do good work on my hair... I learned a long time ago, its not how much you pay, but who you are paying!  I decided that I was tired of my mousy looking hair so I went in to get some highlights.  The girl that did my hair did a great job, but I think when I go back I'm gonna have them go even lighter.  I wanted subtle but noticeable...   It is noticeable but not that noticeable.  I need to find that happy medium...

After leaving Walmart, I finally made it home in time to go get Zack from school.   It was just an all around great day and I feel like I got so much accomplished outside of the house... Hopefully Eric will be on the computer in the morning again and tomorrow I will get accomplished here at the house... Really need to do the dishes and fold the laundry... haha!!!

Hope you have a great night and an even better day tomorrow!!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

1/29/11 - 2/4/11

1/31/2011

Hello my friends!  Today is a day of mixed emotions... I am so thankful that I have one more day with my wonderful husband, Eric... And at the same time I am so sad because I know our days are limited...

Today started out normal... Zack off to school and Eric and I vegging around the house.  I have to say its been so nice having him home with me these past couple of weeks.  He had to leave for a bit in the morning to do a send off to some of our soldiers who had to leave today on their flight to Iraq.  Safe travels to all our friends who had to leave today!  After Eric got home, we fixed ourselves some breakfast and just started to lay around and be bored.  One advantage we have of living in Alaska is when our pay hits our bank, which is in the south, it is still early in the day here!!  Woo hoo!!  Eric said we could go shopping!

Eric and I drove over to Sports Authority to check out the prices on a recumbent bike... I want one to start my exercise regiment!  And it was such a great surprise when we got there and one of the bikes was on sale for $249... Thats a whole $200 cheaper then the P/X we had priced a few weeks ago... Needless to say it was loaded into the trunk of the car!!  Then we went to a used store called Used a Bit... Very cute... bought Zack some books.  He is doing so good with his reading!!  I am so proud of him and have no problem buying him books!

Anyway, after we got Zack we went to the grocery store... got the usual... milk, bread, cereal... couldn't decide what to have for dinner... Then Zack says we should have Chinese... Well... There you go!!  We had a nice dinner at our favorite Chinese Buffet.   Before we went, Eric and Zack were upstairs in the spare bedroom... we are turning it into the home gym... So excited for that!!  Tomorrow Eric says we can go back and get a treadmill they have on sale for $299... Can't beat that!!!  I get to spend tonight working up a chart... When Eric leaves he will be 4023 miles from me... So I've decided over the next year I am going to walk to him... That means that I need to average 15 miles a day on my treadmill... Gonna be hard to start off but I think as time and the weight go by and bye... I can get it done!!  Fingers crossed!!!

Well, tomorrow starts the first day of my new life and lifestyle as far as my weight... Going in for my first weigh in with a nutritionist... Fingers crossed it won't be too bad!!!  Hope you all have a great night and an even better day!!


2/2/11

What a fantastic day I had today... My dear husband let me sleep in until 10 am this morning... It felt so good.  Haven't been getting too much sleep lately... I think its nerves and stress from Eric leaving... Doing my best enjoying every minute I have with him right now!

We spent the morning emptying out some boxes and moving some stuff around and then he took me to lunch and to Barnes and Noble... I actually took him to Barnes and Noble, but I walked out with 3 new books and him nothing...  He then brought me home and went to pick Zack up from school... I wasn't feeling very well so wanted to sit down and relax for a bit.  And it was nice and quiet... Then Zack came home... Good thing I was awake to catch the book bag flying at my head when he walked in the door...

We had a good time going over to some friend's house for a bit... Just moved unto base so we went to find their house... Zack and I were invited over next Sunday to watch the Super Bowl game with them... I do believe we will be going!  I like football and will give us a chance to get out of the house so soon after Eric leaves!

We then took Eric out to dinner... Wanted him to choose someplace he wanted to eat... anywhere at all... He picked Big Daddy's BBQ... Do you watch Food Network?  Guy Fieri and Diners, Drive Ins and Dives?... Well, if you don't you should, then you could see the good yummy food they serve... It was so good and I was a good girl and ate my side salad first and ordered the chicken plate... and then only ate half of the breast that they gave me and gave my wing to Eric...

It was a very good day!  I love days like this... Days where you can just have a good time, even if your sitting in the quiet enjoying each other!  I can't wait for him to get back home where he belongs!!!

Night all!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

1/22/2001 - 1/28/2011

1/22/11


Holy cow!!  Totally did not realize that I have not been on for a week... Sad thing is I don't really remember anything exciting happening the whole time... Spend most of last week just vegetating... getting over all the birthday planning and cleaning up.


Today on the other hand was a whole new day!!!  Started out by having a late night playing on the computer last night... I am addicted to Nancy Drew PC games... Downloaded a new one and got caught up in it... Needless to say it was 2 am before I went to bed.  Then my poor baby woke up at 5:30 with a stuffed nose... I was so tired all I could tell him was go back to bed and we will clean it up in the morning... Clean it up... seriously??  I was so tired I couldn't even open my eyes!!  Then I kept hearing him... he got up and went down stairs... first I hear him coughing... then I hear the TV... then I hear him banging around in the kitchen... Then the dogs start to whine... Guess its time to start my day...

Got up, got the dogs out, got Zack to turn down the tv... Then I crawled onto my couch with my blankie and I was gone!!! Slept for over an hour... Woke up with a major headache... Great!  Finally got some lunch and then we all had to head to Walmart to get a birthday present for our friend's son's 1st birthday...

Got to the birthday party at 3 pm... Ate some food, hung out... got to watch little Joshua dive head first into his cake... That was too cute!!  Then we had to leave at 4:30 to head over to the ice rink here on post... Eric's troop was having a farewell get together to have one last social event for the families... Free ice skating... Zack is hooked!  He wants me check to see if he can get lessons!  Eric got out on the ice with Zack and I don't know who was having more fun... Eric was having a blast and the smile on his face was proof enough for me!!  Didn't get to stay a long time there, only about an hour... Then it was off to the Big Dipper Ice Arena... The local hockey team the Fairbanks Ice Dogs sold tickets in Eric's unit for only $5 to give us a farewell... That was not only cool to do that for all of us, but it was the most fun I've had in a long time... I do believe I am becoming a hockey fan... My throat hurt from yelling so much... We even got to see an actual hockey fight!!!  It was AWESOME!!  If your gonna experience hockey, you have to experience it all!!!

Here it is 11 pm... we are finally home... Zack is eating a chimichanga... Sniffling... Caught himself a major cold today!  Eric and I are on our computers trying to figure out what we want to eat before we go to bed... I'm thinking something light... Maybe some soup or a grilled cheese sandwich!!  Or maybe both... That sounds really good!

Hope you all have a safe weekend and a great night!!!


1/26/11

Wowzers!!  Did this cold really kick our butts... Zack ended up staying 2 days out of school and finally went back today... I caught the cold on Monday and am still suffering from a sore throat and coughing... Hoping I will get it gone in the next day or two...

Things are progressing with Eric and his deployment, as we figured!  He will be leaving us soon... Not looking forward to that or the ramifications of it!  I hope Zack doesn't take it too hard and start acting up.  Zack is dealing better with change but still has some issues with major events... I think his daddy leaving us for a year is considered a major event.

I went and bought him a calender, he actually picked it out, and we are going to go through it and mark down major landmarks over the next year... Kind of like making a mini map of events he can count down to... Hoping it will help him adjust better to the upcoming year!  We are planning on taking a trip down to Idaho to visit family in June/July for a couple of weeks... Hoping that helps too.

Eric has been great this past week... Working around the house helping me get everything cleaned up and organized to make our lives easier with him gone.  This weekend I plan on moving dishes down a shelf in the kitchen so I can reach them... Its the little things we have to think of on a daily basis... How many times do you ask your husband, "Can you get that down for me?"  "Can you open this for me?"  "Can you pick this up from the store on your way home?"... Not anymore... at least for awhile!

I love the fact that I can be so independent... It drives me crazy to see a wife sit back and cry and wallow in self pity because she can't function without her husband... I am Christy... Then I am Eric's wife and Zack's mom!!!  It has to be that way or I would never survive and neither would they!  I've been told I've been admired by my lifestyle and how well I adjust to the changes... To me... Its just how life is... Please, don't misunderstand what I am saying... I dearly love and miss Eric when he is gone, but as a military wife... This is what we do... No matter how much I cry or whine or wallow... Uncle Sam is not going to bring my husband home until his mission or time is up... Everyone has hardships in their day to day lives... Ours is not better or worse, just different!

I hope that didn't scare anyone away... LOL...   I do hope you all have a great night and an even better day tomorrow!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

01/15/11 - 01/21/11

01/15/2011

Wow... Sorry I haven't been on for a few days... Eric and I have been so busy around the house and shopping getting everything ready for Zack's 8th birthday party!!!  Spent the day today picking up treats, pizzas, food, ice, the cake... and then coming home and decorating everything up... We had a great time!  Had lots of food and friends over to enjoy our day with us!  Zack said he loved his party, which made it all worthwhile!!!  We had great success with the birthday cake, especially considering all the drama I had to go through to find someone who was willing to actually decorate a cake here in Fairbanks!!!  And the girls over at the bakery did exactly what Zack asked for... which made it even better!!!

Now I am sitting here in the dark writing on this blog, winding down from the day... Zack and 3 of his friends just finished watching Alpha and Omega and are going to sleep on the living room floor... We'll see how many actually stay in the living room!! I spoke... or wrote too soon... Zack just came and asked if he could sleep in my chair... the floor is too hard!!!  haha!!  Kids!!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

01/08/11- 01/14/11

01/08/11

Eric, Zack, and I spent the afternoon watching some tv and just spending time together!  May not be excessively fun, but it is what we like to do!  In the evening, we went over to some friends house for dinner and a birthday party.  Ended up not getting home until almost 2 in the morning.  Its always fun to hang out with friends and I am so excited to be the one hosting the birthday party next weekend!


01/09/11

Today I am on a mission!!  I was told about a couple more bakeries in the area, so we are heading out to do some searching for someone willing to make Zack the birthday cake he really wants.  I hate to think that my baby boy has to settle for anything!!!  Will let you know how it all turns out!!!

SUCCESS!!!  We drove over to Fred Meyer to check out their bakery and the girls in there said it would be no problem for them to do Zack's cake!!!  All we had to do was get them a picture and they would have it done.  Well, after walking all through the store, looking at the toys, clothes, cards, gift wrap... we found not one single Phineas and Ferb item to take to the bakery!!!  So all the way home we had to drive to pick up a napkin that I had bought at Walmart!  Took it back in and the girl was so nice and said she would personally make Zack's cake for him... He got such a big smile on his face and thanked her!!!  After all the trouble I had went through at the other Fred Meyer store here in town, I am so thankful that this store was willing to work with their customers and give us exactly what we want!!  Still have lots to do... But it is all worth it to make my little man have the best birthday ever!!!

01/10/11

Back to being a lazy day... Got some housework done but nothing more really to report...

01/11/11

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACHARY!!!!   It is so hard to believe that my Zachary is 8 years old today... The time is just flying by!  Given the choice to stay home from school or take cupcakes to his class... he chose the cupcakes... He makes me so proud!!!  And when he gets home he tells me that his teacher forgot about the cupcakes so they are going to do them tomorrow... That is too funny!!!

I spent the morning sleeping... had a very rough night last night... I felt sick but also had a sharp pain in my back all night... more like behind my ribs.  Did not get any sleep and so I slept today after I got home from dropping Zack off at school.  Did make it to the store to pick him up some pizzas for dinner... Zack's choice!  And also got him a small cake since today is his birthday... the bigger party with all of our friends is on Saturday!  Now to just sit back, relax, and wait for daddy to come home!  Maybe I will pull out my massage pad and see if I can get this pain to go away in my back! 

Tonight ended up being a very nice night... Eric and Zack spent most of the early evening in the basement unpacking more boxes... Eric was looking for his PS2 games to pack away to take with him overseas... Not liking why he unpacked boxes but glad he got some more done.  He also found my exercise peddles, so wasn't a waste of time.  Had a quick dinner and ate some cake... Then it was off to bed for Zack... Sorry baby... still have to go to school tomorrow!!

01/12/11

Was a cold one this morning... When I got up it was -12... I'm sure it was colder but I got to sleep in this morning...  My loving husband didn't have to be into work until 9, so he got Zack up and off to school... Oh it felt so good to sleep in!!!  And I felt so good, I got up and started working around the house.  I was able to get the laundry done, sorta ( have to fold it all tomorrow), got the dining room cleaned, dishes and kitchen all done, floors swept and vacuumed!  It felt so good to be able to get up and get some much needed work done.  I am really hoping I get a good nights sleep tonight as well.  Need to go into town tomorrow for an appointment and have to go to the store to figure out what I want to make for dinner.  I may get up and look through my cookbook to see if I can find something interesting to make.  Then back home to finish up the cleaning I need to do.  Only a couple more days until Zack's party and I feel like there is so much to do still.

Today I started a recipe exchange on my email... Hoping to get some good recipes from strangers... I love recipes... I have a mini cookbook collection.  I know it is bigger than some people have but to me it is still very small... Can never have too many cookbooks!!

Gonna sign off and see if I can get a good nights sleep again!  Hope everyone has a great day tomorrow!!!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Links



After discussing with my brother today about some utensils I found here in Alaska... I decided to post some links to some businesses here in Alaska and also links to businesses that can help make your life a little easier here or maybe even where you are!


Moosetard - Locally made in Fox Alaska.

Ulu Factory - Anchorage Alaska

YakTrax - snow chains for your shoes!

Junonia - Plus sized active wear for women

Alyeska Resort - Plan and book your Alaska vacation

The Great Alaskan Bowl Company